I want to go paddling!

Omg! I want to go paddling! They have free paddling in Long Island City every Friday and Sunday. I really want to to this! Was trying to convince Kacy to join but that seems like it's not going to work out. Not good. I'm super excited after I read about this! You have to participate in a lottery for the Friday paddling.. I guess it's pretty popular?

I hate to do stuff on my own. It's boring and I have no one to talk to. Grr! I guess that's the option though since people are traveling. Oh well, let's see what will happen.

Inpatienent...

So inpatient... I got itch in my legs again. At the same time I'm so tired that I could fall asleep this second. Reading a book, thinking... Half-sleeping in my hammock.

Learning from mistakes and history is important. I was on the messenger with my nephew and started to think about how much I have learnt over the years. Sometimes I think that I'm still the same person that I was when I was 20 and then I talk to someone that is 20 and I realize that I really have learnt.
Apparently my nephew is job hunting. Not really sure what the status is on the hunting if it's even happening. Anyway, directly I had three million ideas what he could do. Maybe I should had been a coach? I really love this with brainstorming and coming up with ideas for other people.
It's pretty funny though. Me and my nephew like the same music. I said that Movits! is my favorite right now and he goes: "I know! They are great! Ever heard of the Embassy?" Got a youtube link so now I'm going to explore that. I'm pretty sure I heard them a while ago but forgot about it.... Oh I used to listen to them. Just realized that when I listened to another song by them.
I feel guilty though. I completely gave up on finding music that I like and all of that. No interest or time I guess. So much that have gotten neglected that I used to love. I'm really fighting this to happen again. I feel that it's in the air again, me getting 300% absorbed in my job and stress is getting a bite of me. I love that feeling but at the same time I hate it. I do not want to be a robot again when you work, work, work and then when you have time off you forget what you like to do or you are too tired to get inspired to do something. This with balance, I guess it's not my thing. It has to be though, I have decided that. There is so much to do on this planet and there is just one life.

I really want to go to IKEA this weekend. I'm so sick of having stuff piled up in my room along the walls. It really doesn't feel like I'm really living here as I haven't got new furniture for the once I sold. Anyway, I'm not sure how the stuff will get from IKEA. I tried to get M to do a favor and drive me there and then the stuff would have a nice ride in the car back to my place. Didn't really succeed with the idea though. Even tried to suggest that I could bribe him with beer. Maybe also adding a comment that he would be the super duper star of the weekend for doing the effort of helping me. Oh well, I guess that's not going to happen. Guess I have to live without new furniture until I find someone that owns a car, whenever that now will happen. Annoying. I should just grow 14 arms, 10 heads and like 25 legs and my problem would be solved. Until then....Grr...

Hide & Seek...

Yesterday I saw "Hide & Seek". Scary stuff! Even had to turn on the light in the end, I got a little bit afraid... Dakota Fanning was in the movie and she was damn good. Her eyes in a brown dead hair color was just scary. She kept staring right out in the air. Well, it was good! I had to close my eyes though when the dad in the family found the cat drowned in blood in the bath tube, including when all the other bath tube and blood scenes came up too. For someone into psychological thrillers, this is the movie to see. I think I concluded after this that I'm not a huge fan of these types of movies, even if this one was good.

Now I have to figure out what else I want to see. I'm really on a movie journey here to see everything I ever want to see. Netflix is seriously one of the best inventions ever. I love this! It's so smart.

Almost Friday...

Thursday. Sleepy day #1 for sure. Feeling dizzy and confused. Not really sure what's happening around me. Kirsten called me. She's on the way to Buffalo to hang with her family. Ok. Everyone are out on adventure except me basically.

I feel very restless. Want to do so much but I can't focus. Listing to weirdo music. I'm going to go to bed soon and watch a movie. Exhausted. The speed right now at work is HERE. Really. Soon I'm simply just going to say: "I got to arms, two legs and one head. Until I start growing more limbs just deal with that things take time." But that's not happening and until then I'm just saying: "Will be done asap."
Look at the technical designer or the cad artist and exchange looks and start to laugh. Today I was instructing the technical designer how we were changing one of our garments and when she walked away I ended with a happy & energetic: "Next weeks it's something else! This is the story for now! YAY!"
The technical designer started laughing. How much me and her fix and do our best to maintain everything stuff are always changing. What was news yesterday is ancient the day after. Things go FAST there. One day make a garment 2" shorter, next day make it an 1" longer and the 3rd day make it 3" longer. One day everything should be Bermudas, next day leggings, and then back to Bermudas again. Never ending. Better just to take it with a laugh and just fix it. That's how we deal with stuff even though I after the past week feel like I lost my head.

Jahapp. Bedtime. I'm passing out.

Good times!

Had a really nice evening yesterday with Tina in Williamsburg. Found some Mexican food and ate too much beans. Went to a bar with a backyard and just hanged out. Slightly weird crowd hanging out in the backyard but whatever. Went to Tina's place and drank some beers, played cards, borrowed a stack of Swedish pocket books, talked a lot of crap and took a walk at the rooftop of Tina's building. Could see the Empire State building from there. Really nice and relaxing. It feels really great to have a friend to can talk to and there is not really any pressure of any kind. You just hang out. I love it.

I still just have two arms & two legs...

So tired it's unbelievable. SUPER tired. I f I lay down on my bed right this second I would fall asleep in a minute. So much to do at work. I feel that I'm starting to get an attitude (not a bad one, just someone that is one fire to get everything done!). Whenever I hear my name I'm continuing to work while I say with an expected voice: "What happened?" Because something ALWAYS happens. Not involving me but with my boss: "Sketch this!", "Do you like this?", "How do I do this?", "What is this?", "Where can I find this?".... The questions over a day are just so many. My co-worker does the same thing when she hears her name: "Yeeeeeees, what happened?" Some days it's funny but today I just got fed up, first day ever. I have two arms and two legs, that's it. During the day I was trying to send emails to the vendor overseas, sketch 4 styles, send a packages to Bangladesh, figure out how to get the package to Bangladesh, print out x amount of tech packs, figure out why my Mac doesn't understand the tech designer,s PC Excel specs.... including have my boss on the other ear: "Linda, are you working on something? We need to sketch this..." Sometimes I just don't get it why my boss doesn't take a class in Illustrator or general computer knowledge. It would make all of our lives so much more easier, seriously.

I'm getting speedy though. Also on the level when people know that I know so they want to ask me. That's how it should be. I'm a superstar.

Two legs, two arms and that's just not enough!

I need to go to IKEA to get a drawer and a book shelf for my room. I'm getting so tired of all the stuff that are piled up in my room along the walls. As I only have two legs and two arms I'm not really sure how I will get the stuff from IKEA. This will be hard. Seriously, can't I just grow like 14 arms or something? Grr! I really don't want to wait for the stuff to get delivered and it feels like such a waste to just buy two things and get it delivered. What to do, what to do....

Sleepy...

So I'm reading a book. It's pretty bad but I still can't stop reading it. It's ridiculous. So yesterday I stayed up too late to read this book that's not even that good, just addicting. So stupid. I used to read a lot of books years back and then I just stooped because I get so obsessed.

Time to go to work. Have a feeling that today will be madness. Not for me, but for my boss and my co-worker. The owner and his partner want to see the new fall styles sketched and well, it's not all done and what is done I would say is just ok. Nothing over the top and super exciting.

On repeat...

I can't stop listing to this. Movitz and this song is my new favorit. I just put it on repeat, which is dangerous, as I soon will hate it. But until then, I listen and I love it. So good!

Itchy legs!

God, today I feel so inpatient it's unbelievable. I really wanted to go to the beach but that didn't happen sadly enough. I really want to go tomorrow but no one has any time. So sad. Am I ever going to get to the beach again?

I feel weird today. Just strange. I'm here but at the same time I'm not really here. I want to do something but people are busy or away. Really sucks. I have to wait until Monday until something exciting will happen.

Spent my day in Central Park at a blanket reading a book and eating x amount of cheese crackers. Now I feel sick. Was really nice though. Just listening to birds and just enjoying the weather. It's supposed to rain tomorrow so I guess I have to take advantage of every single sunny day out there.

I saw Rufus the dog yesterday! Exciting! Rufus - the good looking doggie male. I still think it's a lie that Rufus is 12 years old.

In hanging out with Rufus it also meant I also hanged out with M. I guess that was slightly awkward and weird at certain times. Also I get a little bit too much pushing the buttons at times. It just happens. It takes time to heal certain things. I'm convinced that once the wind has blown, which takes time, and wounds have healed we will be good friends. It just takes time. It was good though. Healthy. I got it out, not really sure if M. did but I feel refreshed. Also I was really surprised that I was able to say my point of view without hearing an annoying voice saying that that he doesn't want to talk about this and that I'm just wrong. Making progress in this with communication.

Some things are just not meant to be how much you even wanted them to be or work. Then once time has passed and we learn from mistake we realize that it's just too late and we can only learn from our mistakes. It sucks, yes it does, but some things are just not fixable how much you even want to fix them. Also if they were fixable, they are not healthy. This is for the best and I know it.